Dreams Are Freak

There was this saying that by letting someone to play an important role in your life, they would be someone who knows the best way to let you down. The first time I heard it, you know what I thought? I used to think that it was impossible. I mean, if I treasure them so much, then they wouldn't have the heart to let me down in any possible way, would they? They, whom I trust so much, are not supposed to hurt me intentionally, even though they know how to make me feel at the worst, aren't they? But life has prove me wrong. They, in fact, never cares, or maybe if they care , there will come a moment when they decide not to care anymore. Heartless, yes. But I'm wondering my self, Am I still possesing a heart to judge people around me for acting so? I've become more heartless day by day. It's pitiful, but the same question always lingers on my mind, Am I being like this because life has striked me hard or just because I'm tired for possesing one? Whe...

If there were two options: The first one is to walk in the lights, know what you’re facing, and be afraid , The second one is to walk in the dark, never know what you’re facing, but be brave. What would you choose?

                Kalau pindah planet itu memungkinkan, saya pasti sudah melakukannya. Di saat saya berusaha mempertahankan living value yang dikoar-koarkan sampai telinga saya gatal oleh sebuah institusi, baik secara lisan maupun tertulis, saya tidak dihargai. Menyesal telah mempertahankan living value itu? Tidak sama sekali, tapi kalau kecewa atas perlakuan yang saya terima karena mempertahankannya, bisa dibilang iya.

Well actually i took so many photos during SMTOWN Jakarta... But unfortunately those photos are blurry and even this one is also blurry -.- but this is the best photo I could get... I mean.... Lee Sungmin was waving at me... It seemed like he was staring directly at my camera... I also caught his smile... I should've brought my DSLR  or better digicam T^T 

Haeplin during Good Friends Henry during his solo performance this actually was Zhoumi who was singing Goodbye for his solo performance Handsome Haeplin! During Storm Performance! this is.. Sungmin ...... uncontrolled face of Baby Ming Photos were taken by me, using Cella's pocket camera and some of them used Cella's Instax Mini 7s.

Kamis, 26 April 2012. Hari saya melaksanakan tugas sebagai murid Sekolah Menengah Pertama, yaitu belajar. Setiap achievement itu emang ada harganya! Harganya ya perjuangan keras yang dimulai dari Januari silam. Try Out bertubi-tubi, latihan soal bejibun, jam pelajaran tambahan, belom lagi ditambah persiapan diri di rumah. Tapi, toh, semuanya udah lewat! Gue bisa survive! meskipun sempet pilek gak sembuh-sembuh dan dilanda kemalasan yang aduhaiiii -_- Sekarang, yang bisa gue harapkan adalah apa yang menjadi target gue dan semua siswi SMP Santa Ursula yang lain bisa terwujud. Kami punya target dan target itu beda dengan mimpi. Target kita bukan lulus 100% karena lulus itu tanggung jawab, bukan target lagi. Target kita adalah.... Mempertahankan apa yang telah diraih oleh kakak kelas. Dan biasanya, mempertahankan itu memang lebih sulit daripada meraih...

Ahhh.. I'm not going to say anything here. Just wanna share some quotes from my new story. The story is very simple :3 I'm not making a lot of effort for this story, but I simply like it :) Here's the quotes :) “Ada saatnya aku harus memenangkan perhatian ibu darimu. Tapi aku sadar lebih penting lagi bagiku untuk merebut sesuatu yang menurutmu lebih penting daripada hidupmu sendiri. Keinginanmu padanya lebih daripada keinginanmu untuk hidup. Makanya aku harus merebutnya darimu, merebut nafasmu darimu.” END. super anti climax. I know. Just wanna share what I wrote just now ;) Bye world..