Dreams Are Freak

“Ya, tapi positifnya adalah we’re having another life after this, kan?”Aku bertanya sambil menghela napas. “Jadi, setidaknya ada harapan kalau kehidupan bisa jadi lebih baik lagi di kehidupan kita yang lain.” “Yea, jadi kalau this life fails, both of us still have another chance, kan?” tanya Rashid, namun ia lebih seperti ingin mencari pembenaran daripada mempertanyakan apakah kalimat yang dilontarkannya benar atau tidak. Pesan pengarangnya: enjoy reading and I hope you like it!

        It’s obvious that Joko Widodo—famously known as Jokowi—is getting majority support for the upcoming president election, if not nationwide, it’s fair to say that he wins the heart of Jakarta and its surrounding areas. The reason why Jokowi got the citizens’ favor is actually simple. He is renowned for his clean image in his political career and from so many cases I have seen, it is safe to conclude that avoiding corruption as much as possible is an important point in winning people’s sympathy.

Today, 21 st March 2014, marked 8 months of my wasted life admiring someone who barely knew I existed. It’s habitual for someone, at least once in their lives, fall in love with someone who doesn’t deserve that feeling. The wise one can manage to get over it and move on, but one eventually can’t get over it, maybe for a while—or maybe for the rest of their lives. I might say I am the one who eventually can’t get over it for a while——I mean, up till now.

There was this saying that by letting someone to play an important role in your life, they would be someone who knows the best way to let you down. The first time I heard it, you know what I thought? I used to think that it was impossible. I mean, if I treasure them so much, then they wouldn't have the heart to let me down in any possible way, would they? They, whom I trust so much, are not supposed to hurt me intentionally, even though they know how to make me feel at the worst, aren't they? But life has prove me wrong. They, in fact, never cares, or maybe if they care , there will come a moment when they decide not to care anymore. Heartless, yes. But I'm wondering my self, Am I still possesing a heart to judge people around me for acting so? I've become more heartless day by day. It's pitiful, but the same question always lingers on my mind, Am I being like this because life has striked me hard or just because I'm tired for possesing one? Whe...

If there were two options: The first one is to walk in the lights, know what you’re facing, and be afraid , The second one is to walk in the dark, never know what you’re facing, but be brave. What would you choose?

                Kalau pindah planet itu memungkinkan, saya pasti sudah melakukannya. Di saat saya berusaha mempertahankan living value yang dikoar-koarkan sampai telinga saya gatal oleh sebuah institusi, baik secara lisan maupun tertulis, saya tidak dihargai. Menyesal telah mempertahankan living value itu? Tidak sama sekali, tapi kalau kecewa atas perlakuan yang saya terima karena mempertahankannya, bisa dibilang iya.

Well actually i took so many photos during SMTOWN Jakarta... But unfortunately those photos are blurry and even this one is also blurry -.- but this is the best photo I could get... I mean.... Lee Sungmin was waving at me... It seemed like he was staring directly at my camera... I also caught his smile... I should've brought my DSLR  or better digicam T^T